My mind has been stuck in the depths, in the darkness that worry can bring.
The grave clothes masquerade as busyness, wrapping tighter around me as I shuffle from thing to thing, fears binding them tighter and tighter.
My walk with Christ suffers.
My marriage suffers.
My children suffer, including the one I'm worrying most about.
My relationships with others suffer.
but I suffer in silence,
like a dead corpse that cares not one way or the other.
The truth of it is that I need a miracle.
I need a resurrection.....
a resurrection of the mind, not the body.
Yes, I may have been born unto God, but practically?
I'm the walking dead,
all life sucked right out of me.
Like some spiritual horror story, I wander through the days with no hope, no faith, no truth.
A spiritual zombie.
Everyone around me is affected by the stench of a rotting shell......
life draining away as I drag through the days,
dragging others down with me.
I've been attacked....
And as I let them settle in my heart and mind, they drain the spiritual life out of me.
They didn't look harmful, but how rapidly those untrue thoughts have latched on, trying to suck out every last drop of truth I know.
And as the truth fades, I'm swallowed down into graveyard darkness.
But the truth, the truth doesn't die when I stop believing.
It lives still, and it keeps steadily shining, whether I'm seeing it or not.
Its beam is steady, unbroken.
And just like the sunshine can bring life into the cold, lifeless heart of a tree,
the light of truth can bring life into the cold, lifeless heart of me.
Christ's light demands me wake:
To get up and walk out of the tomb that holds no power over me,
To step wisely, using up every moment of life He's blessed me with doing His will.
And His will is always, always to be filled up with Him, His spirit LIVING in me,
Feeding on His words of life,
Thanking always for all things,
Stooping down in love and serving those around me.
With dim eyes revived, I can see life everywhere I look.
For all of you dear people who've prayed for Lili and our family....
Your prayers and words of encouragement mean so much.
We got a phone call on Tuesday from the only doctor in Ghana who can do the test Lili needs.
John and Lili are headed to Accra today (Friday) so they can get the test done first thing Saturday morning. The doctor will also examine Lili and decide if she will need heart surgery or not.
Please pray for their safety in traveling, wisdom for the doctor, calmness for Lili as she must be completely still for the test, and wisdom concerning any decisions that must be made.