Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Cleaning My Closet
Being a wife and a mom are two of my biggest jobs. Some days those jobs go well.
Some days they don't.
Some days they are exciting and fulfilling....and others? Not so much.
Some days we are welcomed home by friends we've not seen in too long.....and some days, we say good-byes.
Most of them I've not worn in a long time, but I felt the need to hold on to them. Holding on to the past....like if I got rid of them it would somehow change that memory.
But you know what? That's silly. By giving away my graduation dress, I do not change the fact that I graduated. And by giving away old maternity clothes I don't lose my child.
So why do I do that with my bad days? Why do I cling to the past?
Can I change it by mulling it over and over?
If I feel really awful about how I spoke to my daughter or the look I gave my husband can it change what has already been done?
The answer is simple, yet profound.
The answer is no.
I can ask forgiveness for the past. But I can't change it.
So what to do?
I clean out my closet.
I allow myself to let go of the past so I can live in the present.
Because that, my friend, is all I'm promised.
It's the best way to think about my life as a mommy and wife, and a pretty good way to make peace with my closet.